{"id":86,"date":"2021-09-07T13:19:58","date_gmt":"2021-09-07T21:19:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/shannonbarber.com\/?p=86"},"modified":"2021-09-07T13:20:38","modified_gmt":"2021-09-07T21:20:38","slug":"writing-exercise-4-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shannonbarber.com\/?p=86","title":{"rendered":"Writing Exercise #5."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

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Prompt-1.284 A parent uncovers a dark secret on their child\u2019s computer, smartphone, music player or gaming device. A secret which involves the parent\u2019s significant other. What is it?\u00a0<\/strong>\u2013 Prompt from Instigation Creative Prompts on the Dark Size by<\/a> Michael A. Arnzen (affiliate link) written in the last couple of hours between work calls. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I always told myself I\u00a0wouldn\u2019t\u00a0be this father. Mine was like this and after I left home, the last time was the last\u00a0straw,\u00a0and I never went back. My daughter asked me to do some work on her laptop, all\u00a0ican\u00a0think of is her beautiful brown face, her sweet gravelly voice, \u201cthanks Daddy.\u00a0I\u2019ll\u00a0be back after work. Love you.\u201d She kissed my cheek and bounced away, the beads on the ends of her braids clacking away, her braids swinging, \u201chey baby goat bring some paper towels home. Love you baby.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My baby goat, my beautiful,\u00a0rambunctious, leaping, agent of pure chaos and here I am with her laptop open in front of me, knowing full well what\u00a0I\u2019m\u00a0going to do. I have paid close attention, kept our relationship open, I talked to my Mama, I thought I was ready and then two weeks ago I heard her and now I\u00a0have to\u00a0know.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I go through the\u00a0usuals;\u00a0spot check some emails and look at a few items here and there. I have no heart for this. I open her\u00a0tiktok\u00a0and smile, she works so hard on it. Her little dance videos are so cute, she looks just like her Mama did at that age. 20 years old, a stank attitude and the uncanny ability to express herself so freely and\u00a0joyously, I\u00a0miss my wife so\u00a0much\u00a0but I\u00a0can\u2019t\u00a0think about that now. My wife and I had learned early on about the warning signs, I thought my baby would get away but, as I opened a folder marked drafts I saw.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As soon as the folder\u00a0loads,\u00a0I understand. I was right. Fuck.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When my wife and I met, we knew right away. The scent of\u00a0the gene\u00a0active for\u00a0lycanthropy is a scent we all know. If the gene is active, we know. Unless of course it is your own child as we found out. When two people with the active gene mate and produce offspring, both parents are nose blind to the lycanthropy of their own child. Evolution is ridiculous but,\u00a0that\u2019s\u00a0where we are at.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Before my wife passed, we had a talk with\u00a0her,\u00a0and I thought it was handled. I was so proud of myself after my wife was gone. I handled her period like a man, I let her wear my sweatpants and eat every scrap of food in the house and\u00a0wasn\u2019t\u00a0even mad when she\u00a0snarled. Her behavior through childhood was normal for us. She was always a little more\u00a0bitey, a little more observant than other children but I thought we were past the danger zone.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When the pandemic hit and she moved back home, we had a good solid agreement about our boundaries. The house is big enough and we have each had our own space, I went for weeks at one point without seeing her. There have been clues here and there, a few bites taken out of chickens in the fridge, what might have been howling. I start updating her computer and text her that\u00a0I\u2019ll\u00a0pick her up from work.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My wife told me before she passed to teach her our ways. I got some things together and puttered around the house for hours until it was time to go. When I pull up at the bar she waves, hugs the\u00a0bouncer\u00a0and fairly prances to the car. \u201cDaddy guess what? One of my regulars came in with like a whole big ass group of people and they tipped me two hundred\u00a0frickin\u00a0dollars.\u201d she shows me the cash and wiggles in pure glee. \u201cThat\u2019s great honey\u00a0good job. Was it those bank guys?\u201d She shakes her head and gets settled.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

She chatters as I pull onto the freeway until she stops mid-sentence and looks at me. \u201cWhat\u2019s wrong? Do you have to poop?\u201d I laugh,\u00a0she\u2019s\u00a0such a country soul. \u201cNo,\u00a0I just um, listen. Have you been changing honey?\u201d When I look at her, her shoulders are up around her\u00a0ears,\u00a0and she\u00a0squirms. \u201cI am not mad at you honey, I just want to make sure you are safe and feeling okay.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cDaddy, I um- I have been doing something that might make you mad. But please hear me out before you get upset?\u201d I steel myself; I keep imagining her out there alone,\u00a0running scared,\u00a0maybe getting\u00a0stuck by the freeway or worse. I nod, we had an agreement that when she asked, I would not\u00a0immediately\u00a0get angry. \u201cOkay so like, I read all of Mom\u2019s journals and everything, so I was pretty ready. I was a\u00a0real late\u00a0bloomer. I\u00a0didn\u2019t\u00a0change the first time until right after my eighteenth birthday. It was pretty\u00a0rough\u00a0and I woke up cuddling a\u00a0half-eaten\u00a0rabbit.\u201d\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I let her go on. \u201cSo then after I got laid\u00a0off,\u00a0I kept thinking about it so\u00a0basically,\u00a0I founded\u00a0a\u00a0um, spicy website with Irina and some other girls. We change and then, it depends.\u201d I glance at her, \u201cspicy like um, I-\u201d she smiles at me. \u201cDon\u2019t think about it too hard. It isn\u2019t super dirty, but the market is wide open. Basically, we\u2019re just naked and furry and doing\u00a0kinda\u00a0normal things unless it is a\u00a0mukbang\u00a0then we like eat stuff the customers buy us. There are a lot of us now and well, I was\u00a0gonna\u00a0wait until your birthday to tell you something else-\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My mind is blank. \u201cGo ahead sweetie.\u201d She puts her hand on my arm, \u201cwell we did well enough in the first half of the year I um, I saved enough to pay off the house and on your\u00a0birthday\u00a0they are\u00a0gonna\u00a0deliver a side of beef and some donkey bones and I invited Irina\u2019s family, some of the other girls and um, I got you a date. She works with us and you\u2019re\u00a0gonna\u00a0love her.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I know that folks would expect me to be upset. My daughter, my\u00a0lil\u00a0goat naked on the internet but, I\u2019m fine. Not totally fine but, when I look at how proud of\u00a0herself\u00a0she is I can\u2019t be angry. I pull off the highway onto a little forgotten road and turn to face her. She looks on the verge of tears, \u201cDaddy please don\u2019t be mad at me.\u201d I take her hands and kiss them, then I lean over and kiss the tears\u00a0off of\u00a0her cheeks.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cI\u2019m not mad. I\u2019m a little freaked out. I\u2019m happy you\u2019ve adjusted. Um, I don\u2019t really know what to say. Is there, anything you need advice about?\u201d The way she lights up and almost leaps into my arms tells me we\u2019re going to be okay. \u201cYou\u00a0wanna\u00a0go chase javelinas? And if you catch\u00a0one\u00a0I\u2019ll let you eat it in the backyard.\u201d She squeals and claps her hands, \u201cno cheating Dad you\u00a0go\u00a0park the car, I get a head start.\u201d She covers my face in drooly kisses, puts her purse under the seat and jumps out of the car. I watch her streak into the night and turn the car to head home, relieved and terrified.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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